Psychoblog

i was walking up the stairs onto an aeroplane. i knew it was going to crash but i had no choice but to get on it. it took off really steeply and as it was coming to the peak of its climb it started to fall again. i knew i only had a few seconds. i ran down the aisle to the middle of the plane, where there was a sky-light. i opened it and climbed through so that i was crouching on the top of the aeroplane. the plane was nearly on the ground now and so i jumped as high into the air as i could. the plane crashed and i landed on my feet behind it. everyone was gone and i was alone in the world.

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we saw the matrix on thursday last week. i really loved it, although when i first came out i thought i only liked it. it has grown on me lots since then, with thinking about it all. this is definitely not one of those instantly forgettable films. for me it puts onto film the kind of things that have always gone through my head and it has really set itself up for the third film. can’t wait for it now to see whether what me and carl think happens does happen and how they are going to end it. i wonder if they will go for a crowd pleasing ending, the kind of resolution that people would want life to have, or a darker, less fairy-tale ending.

oh, and a lot of people have been saying about how the whole love scene between trinity and neo was unnecessary. i just want to say that i think it was. we needed to see how they are together to believe that neo would choose trinity over everything else without even thinking about it. besides, it was the most passionate sex scene i have ever watched and they didn’t show anything naughty at all.

today i have mostly been preparing to write a paper. this is because a couple of days ago i decided i really wanted to write a paper. in research you are mostly judged on how good you are at persuading institutions to part with their money just for you, how many times you have stood up and bored people with your stuff at things like conferences and how many papers you have written. i figure i have got a good start with the money (although nottingham uni seem to have benifitted from it much more than me) and the giving talks thang, now i want to get started on my first paper.

it would be so cool to go to brum one day and show mum and dad a published scientific paper with my name on it. then they would know that percentages aren’t the most important thing in a girls education.

matrix 2 came out yesterday (well, technically it didn’t but effectively it did). really want to see it, but trying to book tickets with a maxed out credit card didn’t help this matter. hopefully cahooooooooot will save us all.

um..that’ll do.

had a really great weekend, although it will prolly sound really mundane written down in a blog.

my mum, dad, nanny and grandad came up to visit, which was really cool. haven’t seen them for a couple of months. conversational highlights included chicken poo pellets and how placentas are really good for your roses. we went out for a meal at our favourite mighty nice pub and i paid for everyone (!).

on sunday we were very middle class and did some gardening. carl cut the grass (yey, it’s long enough to cut now) and i dug over our vegetable patches and planted lettuce, carrot, spring onion and sprouts seeds. poo knows if i have done it right or not though. will soon see. it’s all very exciting (i’m not being sarcastic either, i /am/ excited about it). we got some big ready planted flower pots for the front of our house to try and keep up with our neighbours. they are very pretty.

on sunday evening we followed the bells through kirkby and found a really nice parish church just up the road from us. we had lost all hope of finding anything nice in kirkby. this was a really significant moment in our weekend because we agreed that this church was the one we would like to get married in. i could imagine pulling up outside there and stepping out in my beautiful size 10 dress (diet starts now i guess). we also decided that for our honeymoon we would like to do a little tour of france with our tent. all we need now is to decide on a place for the reception and find a pot of gold so we can start arranging things. that would be wonderful. would really like to get things moving soon.