nothing to see here
nothing is happening here. all work stuff has ground to a halt because so far i have had poo all response to my pleas for some patients to scan. and since (i know you shouldn’t start a sentence with and) all work up until now has been preparing for this patient study i’m a bit stuck for what else productive i could be doing. there are a couple of things i suppose, but they seem so wishy washy that it’s hard to really focus on them or get up the motivation to actually do them. i have made some pretty leaflets that i’m planting in speech therapists waiting rooms so hopefully that will come to something. i think the therapists are starting to feel sorry for me now, which can only be a good thing.
decided i absolutely have to start getting slimmer now. yesyes, i know it’s such a surprise to be reading this in a girl’s blog, but there comes a time when it’s not just being obsessional any more and the problem is real. so i’m really not fishing for any compliments or anything. for me it is coming up to summer again now and i have realised that i don’t have any fat summer clothes. they are all little strappy tops and stuff (actually that’s about it anyway) and i don’t quite fit into them as well as i used to. i don’t have the money to buy any fat summer clothes so the only practical thing to do is try and fit back into the slim summer clothes again. see, not going all weirdy about it. not having any of the eating disorders of the past. just being practical.
the other day (could have been yesterday, who knows) a friend announced on irc that he was reading this blog. i felt really embarrassed in an “oh my god” kind of way. not sure why, it’s not like i open myself up bare on here or anything. not revealing any dirty little secrets or anything i wouldn’t share with a passing stranger. i think it prolly has something to do with the fact that in the back of my mind i don’t really like the idea of having a public blog. it somehow seems a bit self-indulgent or a bit self-important. i do like writing this blog though, but then a bit of catharsis never hurt anyone (unless you channel things through aggression).
nearly the weekend though, wooo.
