Psychoblog

this week on tuesday i turn 26 weeks and on thursday i turn 26 years. the first landmark is much more impressive to me than the second. i keep forgetting that my birthday is coming up and that i should think about what i want to do for it. it just seems irrelevant at the moment, with so many other important things going on in our lives.

apologies to anyone older than me, but 26 is sounding very old. entering the 2nd half of my 20’s. when i look back at the first half of my 20’s i feel very happy. it has all been about setting up my life with carl as independent people in the world and i feel proud that we have come a long way in a relatively short amount of time. the rest of my 20’s looks like it will be dedicated to setting up and nurturing our growing family and i wouldn’t have it any other way.

so really, this isn’t a birthday to be afraid of. i don’t want to roll back the years to younger days. this is exactly where i want to be. so hoorah for that.

i have a tankini, woo. went to mothercare world at the weekend and got a black and white stripey one. i really love it. the stripes made my eyes go a bit funny when i tried it on and looked at myself in the mirror, but i think if it makes it hard for people to focus on me in my swimming gear then that can only be a good thing.

also, think how much easier it is going to be to go to the loo in it rather than an all in one.

carl bought it me for my birthday, but he said i can have it now and so the inaugural wearing of the birthday tankini is set for tonight.

perfect.

i told my midwife at the 12 week appointment that i was going to start swimming as a good pregnancy exercise. 11 weeks on we went to our first swimming session last night at the pool in long eaton with the cool water shute that i couldn’t go on.

it was great, really very relaxing. quite weird though, because as i was doing my just-about-keeping-nose-above-waterline breast stroke i could feel the weight of baby in my tummy, like i had something strapped around my waist. felt baby kicking a few times, as if she wanted to help me out.

need to get a maternity swimsuit if i’m going to get any bigger though (which i will be). i want a tankini, partly because that word amuses me. it’s like a bikini, just with a longer top bit, and they look really cool.

what a pointless post. at least i managed to amuse myself further with more mentions of tankinis.